"I'll judge you all and make damn sure that no one judges me."
I Start Fires! |
2002-11-09
Piggy's specs were nicked at: 4:18 p.m.
My work is out to kill the lot of us all. One older fellow I work with died before I returned from vacation. And yesterday I found out that one of the women I work with -- and know quite well -- has cancer of the pancreas. All cancer sucks, but pancreatic cancer is pretty much a "Bye Bye Charlie" strain of the disease. If there's a year between diagnosis and death, that's lucky. Well...I feel bad, of course, but she's been in discomfort since the spring, and now reportedly she can't walk more than 15 minutes at a time. So I guess it'll be a sort of release for her. And that's the way it goes. A person much wiser than myself -- probably Mooncalf -- once said mentioned that avid readers tend to be outcasts, but it was wrong to alienate anyone who was smart enough to be able to read in the first place, let alone do it for fun. I'm slowly learning that the general public doesn't like readers, especially young readers. When I actually used to hang out with real people who weren't my husband, my desire to visit bookstores wasn't met with overwhelming support. And I've long stopped bringing books to work. I've heard the word "egghead" from my co-workers enough times to make an omelette. Ha ha ha, WIT! I'm going to grab a guess out of the air, but I think that when I decide to enjoy a book for myself in public, the world turns into my enemy. "Who does she think she is, reading books like gum wrapper riddles? Show off." This is absurd. I'm not reading to show you up. I'm reading because I like it. I like it very much. It does not make me smarter than you. On the contrary, every human enjoys indulging in other people's characters and worlds. Sharing is what makes us human, and I'm no different. But I absolutely cannot follow a movie or a TV plot. At all. Which is why I prefer subbed anime to dubbed. If I'm reading subbed anime, I have no problem running with the story. If it's dubbed, there stands an excellent chance I'll get lost. Disorder? Maybe. Retardation? More likely. Impatience? Wouldn't surprise me at all. With books, I can amble at my own pace. I know platoons of smart people who actually hate to read because they "don't have the patience to sit and read someone else's ideas." Valid. The amount of books someone reads is not an accurate gague of their intelligence. It's just something some of us like to do. And there's a skill involved. Like hunting, fishing, or murdering.
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